Can anybody serve me only just lost ma mum to cancer and stipulation oblige?

second time up
my mum was first diagnosed with cancer wen i was surrounded by p6 i am now 20 years old and my mum passed away about a mth ago the daytime b4 mothers day we read r cards out to her a couple of days b4 it happened and i wrote mum a letter describing her how proud i was of her and everything but i got the courrage to say it to her frontage and told her that she was the best mum in the world,. she was simply 53

since my mum told me about the illness wen i was within p6 i started having panic attacks in first yr and get really scared that if i went to sleep i wouldnt wake up and that nearby was something wrong with me.
ve get over the sleeping issue that happened a few years ago. recently i have be having weired thoughts a week b4 my perioed and wen im on stuff like wen i was walking along a bridge a thought roughly jumping of it but after i thought that i was scared incase it would actualy come about cause i thought of it . i am not scudieal i dont want to end my life the thoughts are scareing me a bit and sometimes i be aware of like i am going a bit crasy as i had a bad patch contained by the summer last year thought i was going mad and crying for no motivation and having a panic attack every like second. but i dont own that now although i still get the toughts and i cant stop myslef thinking about them.

also i own stared to get like anxious wen i go for motor journeys and some times wen i am up town and i get like a sudden frenzy to go to the toilet for number 1. i still think that i am going a bit crasy and that i will end up near cancer or something like that.

it be realy hard to deal with mum human being sick and i didnt really understand how bad she was until b4 xmas mum started to walk down hill she was in hospital wen she died and be suffering alot near the end but she went vastly quickly in her sleep and my dad was near her and her mum and my brother it i wasnt there wen it happened we all have said r goodbyes a few days b4 that that was hard .was easier said than done to watch that i cry every day or at night almost it thinking that time wen she was in hosptal and how she would say hi hunnie wen we walk in to see her i keep thinking that she is going to walk threw the door any min very soon i think i cant belive she is gone

my mum always helped me next to all my probems and quetions and i felt she kept me sane really miss her she was more close to a best friend.
want to get tablets or see doctor as this makes me scared incase they articulate i have this wrong with me and it would me panic even more also perceive like wen i talk to ppl about this i reason that they see me as some one who is messed up and is loney. i thought this would be a gd way to talk about it and other ppl offer me sum feed back and maybe aid others feel that if they r going threw wat i am that there now alone.


thanx x
Answers:     I know, I've been there.
What you're going through is mundane.

The whole time she was sick, your life be thrown upside down, now you're trying to get it back together, while at like peas in a pod time dealing with losing your mother. Long sicknesses put a big strain on the family, like you said next to your dad and you. It's a whole lot to try and process. Anyone who expects you to be done with it on a time table has never lost anybody close to them.
ving only just stinks. It feels like you'll never be able to giggle again if you want to laugh, never be able to smile. The days drag on and on. In the beginning, I would newly start crying out of nowhere, multiple times a day. Sometimes it was because something reminded me of the person I loved, sometimes it be for no reason I could discern at all.

I had nightmares. I sometimes would hear the doorbell ring or hear a hubbub and think "Oh, the baby needs me!" or "Dad must be calling, it's Saturday" and afterwards I would remember. That part was the hardest of all.

The lyrics to the song "Passage" by Vienna Teng seem to illustrate how grieving goes pretty well.
You nouns as if you are having a really tough time and I'm sorry that your mum has died after such a long struggle.
There is an organisation called Cruse which offer various types of help to the bereaved, they are in the phonebook and it may relieve to talk to them.
mum sounds a lovely personality and while she would always want to be remembered she would want you to have a happy and fulfilled duration.
If all else fails would it help to write her a reminder when something is really getting you down (or when something has gone really well). You know and I know that she can't reply but just thinking about her and what she used to utter may help you to sort things out.
Good luck
I enjoy had the same experience. It is a stress issue combined with poor nutrition. You enjoy gone through such an emotional situation. Losing your mom is one of the toughest deals you will ever deal beside. I thought I would lose it if ever when my mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer. If it hadn't been for a friend who talk me through it I don't know. I was lucky when I reached out she was near. There are some tabs I take and I swear by them to help endow with you the amino acids your body needs and it helps the mental part. They are Blue Green Algae or they may be call Spirella where you are. You can buy them at Wal Mart or a drug store over the counter. At Wal Mart they are about $5.00 a bottle. Well worth the cost. Don't expect these feelings to call a halt abruptly, they won't. It is a process. When you start to feel these deals coming on even the frenzy attack part. Get up and walk. Free your mind. Don't let the fears and distrustful thoughts have free reign. The more you practice this the less they will become. I have gone through the loss of my mom, my dad, my husband, and son. Trust me I know what I'm talking about. Some days can be overwhelming. You learn to control it, so it doesn't control you. Eventually soon you will say wow that hasn't happened in a while. Then it might pop up again, and you seize up and walk and free your mind. You pray for peace of mind, peace of heart, and peace of soul when you walk and know all will be fine. Believe! You will be ok.
Go to the doctors, you need assistance, or maybe bereavement counselling, I was the same 3 years ago when my dad died of cancer, I be older than you, I was in slowly 40s at the time and my dad was 75 but I knew for the rest of the family I have to be strong during his short illness but the day he died I could no longer be strong, I screamed and tried to waken him up - even very soon when I am typing this to you my eyes fill with tears, your mum was young at heart when she died but now she is in a better place and looking down on you and feeling proud of you, she expects you to miss her as you loved her so much and she loved you but she will want you to grasp on with your life and look after your dad and brothers, she knows you will never forget her and you can parley to her at any time but the panic attacks wont go away until you decide that you can cope. My mum still take occasional panic attacks since my dad died and she regularly comes out in a rash next to nerves, I could talk forever but the only person that can relief you is you. Good Luck.
Hi love,
You have gone through a lot. I know because I lost my 1st husband to cancer. All emotion and thoughts you are feeling are normal and you are not going crazy. As a weird thought comes within, recognize it, see it for what it is, (emotional release of a kind) and let it go. You are a childish girl, full of life and beautiful things in front of you, and even though your mom have crossed over, she is always with you. Remember what the science teaches us, that the activeness can never disappear, it only changes form. That's why your mom is still here - you just cannot see her, she have left the physcial body that was too painful, and in a minute she is light, healthy and happy. The with the sole purpose thing that's hard for her is when she sees you down in the dumps about her. It might be helpful to see a psychic (a good one, approaching Gary Spivey - check his website - you might benefit a lot from just watching the videos there). A fitting psychic can help you come to peace that your mom is fine and well, just not accessible contained by the usual ways that you are used to communicate with her. I don't know what your spiritual beliefs are, and you don't have to believe in pshycics to do it. Just be initiate.
I would also like to send you a lot of love and support because even when we know vast inside that our loved ones are ok and still alive on the other side, it takes courage and time to get over the actual physical emptiness that their ratification has created. Your mom loves you a lot, and wants you to know that she is fine. Send her your love, and she will draw together you in your heart, and you will know that she is with you in adjectives of your life ventures. Blessings!
ho you sound so lonely, i want i could give a you huge big hug, i think you may be having nouns attacks, try this take a paper bag out beside you and if you start to feel panicky breathe into the bag and out keeping tthe bag to your mouth try this for going on for 3 mins and you should calm down, but please please visit your doctor what you are going through is quite typical, i no ive been there my mother also passed on with cancer as did both my inlaws. hold care and remember you are not alone xx


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